Stressed

What's the point of eating healthy and working out? Really, what is the point? I take ten billions of medicines a day and still my body fails. What is wrong with my heart? Am I going to live to see my daughters graduate high school? Watch my children marry? Be a grandmother? I'm really stressed out right now. One simple procedure to shock my heart into normal rhythm doesn't even work. Because my blood it too thick. But I still got to have an IV  started. 3 jabs later. And I got to swallow this disgusting think liquid to numb my throat, and wake up only to learn they didn't shock me. Now I have to call every day to see if the doctor has a cancellation that I can take to find out what they can do now. I just tried to eat and chocked on the fries, now my throat hurts a lot. and I've lost my hunger.   How did my heart go into abnormal rhythms to begin with???